From the beginning of the year until now, I have been tough on myself to say the least. My best friend for 25 years, Patrick, says that I work too hard. I like working. I never think I am working hard enough. I think I put more pressure on myself than anybody does on me. I had to learn patience, and to tell you the truth, I am not a patient person. That’s not a good thing for someone who’s disabled. I always want to figure out a problem right away. To sum up, I am neurotic at times but I guess all successful people are neurotic.

I often get mad at myself for not tweeting enough, Facebook-ing enough, not reading enough articles, not having enough fun, not looking for a girlfriend, not connecting with enough people, and I am just exhausted dictating this sentence. I need to relax!

In the last two months, I have completed a manuscript of my autobiography, moved out of my parents’ house and into my own, gone to Vegas with Patrick, and except for winter break, have not missed the weekly posting to my blog since I started. Isn’t that enough? I told you I was kind of neurotic.

I cannot tell you how many times my manager Kristi and I were talking I would bring up something and she would come back to me and say, Why are you worrying about that now?

The truth is, I just want to live an extraordinary life. I’m always afraid that I’m missing something. On the other hand, am I so focused that I’m missing the journey? I don’t know.

Last Saturday was a great day. I woke up and went to go buy a washer and dryer, and then Pat and I decided to go to the beach for lunch, where we ordered a seafood sampler. We then took a stroll on the pier. At night, I had dinner with my college buddy Emanuel, who gave me crap for not working hard enough. After that, I went out with my friends Arash and Brent, who I’ve known since high school. It was an incredible day. I hung out with people who I knew and love.

There are times where we just have to relax, forget about trying, forget about all the things that we stress over, put everything on the back burner, and just have a good time.

So, after I call it a day with Kristi, I am probably going to turn on ESPN. Then later, I am going to watch the Lakers-Heat game, eat a good dinner, try not to get neurotic, and go to bed.

P.S., I’m kind of worried that this blog post is not the usual length. So what?

P.P.S, I just got a Facebook message from a random person saying that I’m awesome. (Still not long enough?)

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