On Sunday night, I got into bed and watched television. I saw on the DVR that my best friend and roommate Patrick had recorded the movie The Cooler, a dark drama about a guy who cools off hot casino tables. I instantly had a flashback to the first time I watched the movie Christmas Eve 2004. I was in a complete funk. I had no job, I didn’t know whether my disability would stop me, I was interested in a girl who didn’t return the sentiment. I was a mess.

I went to Pat’s house just to get away from it all. We spent Christmas Eve watching The Cooler and Christmas watching basketball.

As I laid in bed on Sunday staring at the name on the DVR, I instantly replayed everything that was happening at that time in my head and I smiled because now I am in a good place. I had just finished talking to my fiancée Leslie, I was sleeping in the master bedroom of my own place, I had my best friend Pat two door down, I just celebrated my mom’s birthday with my whole family, and life is good.

Oftentimes I focus too much on where I want to go, but sometimes I have to look in the rear view mirror and see where I’ve been. One of my problems is that my mind is ten steps ahead. Sometimes that’s a good thing.